Back from the bible camp. Really glad to once again see those sp cf bro n sis in christ again. Hmm i had a hard time trying to understand n digest wad is being taught n it seems like i failed. Somemore i leader n had to depend on the team members w/o contributing. It was kinda stress of cos but it was indeed definitely fun to get to play n chat with them. Haha. Kept falling sick during the camp also so was sleepy n tired during the lesson so i couldnt really concentrate.

Something i cannot deny is LOL, i actually was able to fig out who my angel is. Haha. So obvious. Haha. Well end of this camp would also meant the 2 weeks my dad need is up also. From wad i see now, it's impossible for him to actually agree to let me take up private cello lesson but well, i will keep that in my prayers.

My skins started to peel already also. Even my head!!! Dam disgusting. If u see it u will vomit. But heng today recover liao. Phew! Nw i return home also sian. Wif my mum here always nagging at me, asking me to find a job, sometimes i really cant stands her. Wonder how long will my patience lasts.

Went for the chinese service today, saw vivian sitting alone at the side of the church hall or something waiting for her turn to play the piano. Then after church went to cwp to have my lunch wif my family den went to woodgrove to buy a chicken lol. Dono y woodgrove here suddenly got this mini "pasamalam" my mum n i went to take a look. I guess i was lucky, my first time seeing a cello music album n i purchased it, it's by yo-yo ma. Listening to the cd now, yo-yo ma is indeed amazing. His cello pieces sure you gan dong dao wo de xin.

Oh ya, btw just discovered that my head also kana sun burn LOL! When i comb my hair i can feel the pain also. Hope i can recover by tml morning when i go for the camp. Thinking of the camp again, hmm... makes me worried. Lead my seniors? That's nt an easy job for me definitely, had been a leader since sec sch but nvr a leader to lead my seniors, the most is ppl of my age. So this time round, it's indeed a big challenge for me. I believe gold has his purpose for me, just have to obey. Btw, one more week to go b4 my dad come into a decision to whether he can afford my private cello lesson. My goal may seem so much easier to achieve if this plan goes on. Was so eager to take up private lesson last month but recently it seems like i'm getting more restless. Dono y.

Left house towards sentosa at 7.15am today. Haha! It's my first class outing this yr. Everything turned out very well. It did not rain which we expected it to happen but the weather was dam hot that almost all of us got sun burnt. I didnt feel the pain when i left sentosa so thought i was ok. Eh but seems like i'm wrong! Haha. I got sunburn on my arm, back n face. Haha. It sure hurts alot esp my back. Anyway it was really fun today, having to play my first volleyball game n follow by my favourite basketball.

Scenery is indeed nice, erHEM, yea haha. After we had our last game of captain's ball in the sea, we proceeded to vivo to hav our dinner n went home. Haha. THis outing is indeed not just fun but i think it's important also. Seems like we have to go for outing in order to know more bout each other n to bond together as one. Next mon will be my bible camp liao. Dono y, suppose to be looking forward to the camp de but this time round, dono y but don have the feelings. Hope everything turns out well for the camp.

This week's my exam week. Sure is tired n stress studying for exams but somehw next week seems to have lots of activities awaiting. Doesnt seems so bored anymore. While studying today i thought of next fri. Teacher's Day celebration, whereby we the ex students will go back to our sec sch. Was looking forward to this day de but suddenly some1 caught my mind again. It's that girl! Few weeks ago i felt extremely frustrated but nw, i felt so worried. Wonder why. To wad do i deserved of having this unknown girl doing this to me? Thinking of her spoils my mood. Wad can i do? Some say ignore her but does it really helps? Guess not. I cant imagine wad i will do the next time she does that again. One tight slap n get myself into trouble? Happen to know she's actually my sis in christ n here she is doing this to me. God! Forgive her! Sigh...

This matter sure is enough of spoiling my mood for days n nw cause i use detergent to wash my mouth n it's too reactive, my mouth seems to hav this marks due to the spilling of the skin. One reddish patch over at my face just beside my mouth. To know that i care so much bout my appearance, instead of getting better, here i m having this kind of prob.... Today sure is one tough and stressful day for me!!!

It seems that after my bro got into the army, our relationship became somehw very close. Praise the lord for tht. I guess this is the only period of time whereby i actually talk so much to my bro also. Haha. Really glad that we are so much closer nw.

This few days it seems like god is letting me see my own wrong mistakes by having ppl do something unplesant which i gt to know. It seems that i must really reflect on my actions and words use. Today i went to library to study wif charmaine. Just my luck, i saw that girl again, as usual, very rude towards me. I dono hw to describe wad she did in front of me but it seems that this whole day i'm just so PISSed off that i feel like KILLING her again. Nt like i really know her or something, nvr talk to her b4 but dono y she's just so rude to me. How i wish she could just disappear in front of me. To think that she once said i'm as dark as a charcoal in front of me, it's like this is getting on my nerve. She definitely reached my limit, no doubt about that. But i believe sometimes i also judge ppl like hw she did. Now den i feel hw it is. Thank god for that but i hope i can at the same time cool down. If i see her again, i dono wad i would do.

Just finished my EIS test n that means EIS module is finally over. Well it went kinda ok ok only. I cant remember wad i have studied n this time round, i don even know r my ans answering the question. Haha. Well some of my frenz told me they didnt studied but they're able to write a whole chunks of words. Haha. I guess they're really talented in studying. Haha.

As usual, went for strings essemble today, six quitted but today 2 more joined in. It seem so little to have only 3 ppl in the cello section but wif the 2 new ppl, it seems like we're almost full le. Some cello spoilt so we will be short of cello if too many ppl comes in unless we can get the new cello before the school starts again. Next tue will be my last PWA test. I hope this time round i can prove myself i can really do it. It's an open book test so yea, i just gotten score for it. Haha. With god's help that is. Haha. The following week will be exam week le. Gotten buck up n chiong. At least i wont regret for nt working hard if i cant reach my target. Haha. God will make a way for me.